money is low too. just parted 500bucks for sch fee while i am not even getting my full pay yet.

i could sigh endlessly.

i dun hate my job. i really dun. i dun even like to use the word 'hate' at all if i can help it bcoz its so extreme and i'm trying to be a neutral person. just that i am the kind of person who cannot stand the boring bits in life. i wish to fast forward all the mundane parts and live out only the fun parts. (that reminds me of adam sandler's 'click' (or was it called 'remote??? no, definitely 'click' i think..) morale of the movie is that sometimes it's the boring parts which makes u look forward and even more cherish the good ones. i wonder if life is all about the good bits only, then will they eventually bcome boring too???)

stupid la.. it's like thinking of the egg and chicken question and i sure as hell dun wanna think of such things at the end of the day!

shall grumble a bit. can't stand some of my clients. no actually only 1 of them. i shall call her the mother pig. why? bcoz she is a grunter. u know how pigs sound like right. they grunt. why i call her that is due to the typical phone conversation, she almost always give me the same reply:

Me: so MP(shall censor off the real name and shorten to MP aka mother pig), you only want this so and so right.

MP: Hmmm..

Me: Right.. how many that so and so? also the same?

MP: Hmmm..

Me: Ok... only local or PR only?

MP: Hmmm..

Me: can i also so and so and so?

MP: Hmmm..

and so on. maybe i can't express her stupid cant-be-bothered-to-hide-her-boredness-and-impatience voice simply by using the word 'Hmmm..' but it's that kind of ultra dead fish, super auntie and basically feel like slapping her kinda voice. if u have at any 1 time of your life embarked on a job that required to call up pple frequently, i am sure definitely got heard such voice b4.

so there. hence i nicknamed this irritating client TMP. pple like her ruined my day. see how i even stay up to blog and bitch about this moron after work?

can feel i am in a bitchy mood now. can i blame it on my hormones? i can related to all the words below:

aggressive, argumentative, bellicose, combative, contentious, discordant, disputatious, gladiatorial, militant, pugnacious, quarrelsome, scrappy, truculent, warlike, antagonistic, fierce, hostile, hot-tempered; acidic, bearish, bilious, choleric, crabby, cranky, cross, disagreeable, dyspeptic, fretful, grouchy, grumpy, huffy, ill-humored, ill-natured, ill-tempered, irascible, irritable, ornery, peevish, pettish, petulant, querulous, rude, snappish, snappy, surly, testy, touchy, ugly, waspish; battling, fighting, warring

it's like everything is doom and gloom and i can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. awww.. i wish i am more like shany. she never seems agitated (much). mostly always calm and serene. to be honest i can't. for once i have a too-defensive nature which makes me wanna take on anyone who picks on me. anyone knows how to transform into a more peace-loving, doves-fly-around-me and i-can-c-a-halo-over-my-head person? I WANNA RELATE TO THESE WORDS INSTEAD:

affable, amiable, amicable, benevolent, complaisant, conciliatory, cordial, easygoing, friendly, genial, good-natured, good-tempered, gracious, ingratiating, obliging, pleasant, sociable; calm, quiet, relaxed, serene, tranquil; benign, gentle, kindly, mild, nonbelligerent, pacific, peaceable, peaceful

Heeheehee.. feels kinda better now.

anyway i kinda figure out the main source of my irritation but i strongly bcoz its due to the fact that i am so broke this mth, the begger outside the kuan yin miao earns more than me or something. hence my brilliant solution is to start buying toto and 4d regularly once again (only $2 a wk on toto, as i firmly believe that this is by sheer luck and so long got buy, means got chance, so no need too much). thank god there is a betting outlet in my work building *hiak hiak hiak hiak hiak* u dun say.. that time when toto accumulated to 5millions, my colleague A jio m-san to buy quickpick and he did! 5bucks! more than me can! so u see, japanese also buy toto so singaporeans must not lose out.

omg.. it's only monday... wanna cry but no tears. c'mon wkend! 4 more days to go only! hang on to your panties, pple! Be Strong!