I DiD It My Way~
Monday, June 04, 2007
coming out of seclusion
Actually, I was really in a coma since my last entry and has miraculous woken up, despite the doctor's pessimistic solemn words that i would remain a vegetable for the rest of my life.
Joke. Simply didn't blog for months as the initial blogging fever is gone and experience no peer pressure either as only 2 blogger frens I've got aint blogging much (or none at all i.e. yishan) themselves. So dawn, sweetie, pls do not write me off as a vanished blogger as from my observation, u r not doing very well yourself, blog-wise. Ha. Btw, have u change your blog address again or simply not blogging huh. is it still the wretch thingy? Pls do update me. P.s: miss ya~
Back to me.
omg. it's june already. Can't believe how time flies. sometimes i feel that it's so fast, i can hear the 'whoosh' as time passes me by. none of my resolutions made this year happen either. life is so bleak and dreary for me. *proceed to flung myself v dramatically to the ground, sobbing hysterically in total darkness except for a lone spotlight shining on my god-saken forlorn form of a melancholy being.*
good to know that i am still as drama as ever.
i have decided to blog about trivial stuffs of my life from now on, even if nobody bothers to read it. i get my kick from indulging in egoistic self-loving blogging.
had this mock exam today. v depressing. this horrifying relevation that i'm prolly not gonna pass my jlpt 1 this year. though i am much encouraged that i passed my 3 and 2 in one sitting each, it's gonna be different this time. after all, this is like the ultimate of all jlpt exams. i cant read enough kanji, get my listening and understand the comprehensions to get that pass for sure. *deep sigh* suppose to have an hour and half for the last paper but i couldn't really bother trying as i dun understand anyway so ended up randomly filling in the answers and left almost an hour before time's up. unfortunately i was the 1st to do so and this caused much curious glances in my direction as i made my way to the door. oh! trust me. it wasn't bcoz i was too brainy.
managed to catch 3/4 of desperate housewives 3 when i got home. happily missed last week's episode as i have conveniently forgotten to tune in. and it's not the 1st time. now i can't bloody make sense of the plot no more. there are so many new characters now that i dun know wth they are and all. i can't find any back episodes on youtube either (though i am eternally grateful for the supply of jap dramas).
man, life sucks. i used to catch almost every single episode for DH season 1 and 2. 1 of the few things i really enjoy (read: sad sad life). now that i can't follow the plot, i feel like there's no point in watching it anymore. felt deprived. like a little girl whose favourite doll has been taken away and told that i will never have it back again. after some time when i'm done with mourning my loss and got on with my life, the doll was given back but i no longer want it anymore. how weird.
i must say the things in life r really hard to predict huh. i guess there is a best moment, like a climate, to everything. once u have experienced that moment, even if more is given, u still think what u used to have was better. DH was fab when i used to watch it but now that i'm watching 3, i no longer enjoy it as much no more. caught shrek 3 last week and it was a disappointment. yeah it has its funnies but 1 and 2 were the classics. strange how sequels of many movies cannot match up to their prequels.
i still recall my sec sch days in fondness. the carefree life a student led, albeit all that exams and stuff but at least all i had to do was studied and my obligation is met. ironically, i wouldn't choose to turn back time even if i could. the future is far more exciting. leave the past alone solely for memorial sake. that way, at least the memories remain the way i love to remember them by.
dun be mistaken i'm certainly not moaning about life. things can't be better than being alive! (unless i have my limbs missing or other body parts gone)
i live a bummer's life now with watching hk and jap dramas endlessly and i'm loving it more than macdonalds (although i admit i love its mcwings).
love watching how other pple's lives turn out, never mind they are fictional characters. it's the way i choose to learn about life and aint ashame to say this at all ^_^
i like reading a good book too but i dun do that often nowadays anymore. the exhilaration of a good plot which touches your heart deeply. my solace when life hits the mono lull.
when is the last time a great show or book reaches deep in your heart and made you feel that:
Ahhh.. Everything in the world, is ok.
