I DiD It My Way~
Friday, June 08, 2007
so hot every day.
i think being a girl is quite pitiful sometimes. we girls wanna be smelling like a rose with perfectly matt complexion which we v craftively want u to believe that those rosy cheeks and glossy lips r inborn n not the result of careful application of make up. n oh, our eye brows look the way they are since the day we were born. definitely not bcoz of any sort of plucking or shaping.
bloody hell. it's like sauna in sg. i can't walk to the bus stop without breaking out into my 1st bout of perspiration. my hair is all plastered and flat b4 the day could end.
super unglam.
today i'll on this bus and along came this moron who took the liberty of taking on the role as the entertainer to the busloadful of passengers by playing song on his hp on loudspeaker. i dun think this is the 1st time i encountered such a public nuisance. they look all nonchalent and act as if its the norm and a socially accepted behaviour to play dj in public places, especially on the bus. i was purposely throwing the offender irate dirty looks in his direction several times but of coz, he is pretending (or worse, not bothered) to notice. hello, if i would like any form of entertainment when riding on the bus, i would certainly provide my own. and i was already reading a book then, damn it. pls do us all a favour and go buy a fancy sportscar with ridiculously expensive sound system then roll down all windows and by all means blast e speakers till your eardrums explode and i promise i would certainly shut my mouth about it. or the cheaper alternative would be to but earphones and stick them in your ears, LIKE EVERYONE ELSE DOES. btw i dun even like the crap song he's playing (it's actually not the main point but that pisses me off too. i'm thinking if a song i like was playing maybe my reaction wouldn't be so great).
not to stereotype but my on my both encounters, the v inconsiderate person is a youngster (by youngster, i do mean student-looking kids. i am pretty young myself, fyi). i think it get worse by the generation huh. when i was schooling, i tot i had my fair share of rebellion phase n all but lo and behold, i totally felt almost saint-like in comparison to the kids nowadays. man, they sure have lotsa problems that mess up their young minds huh. not that i am indifference but come on, i was a teenager once and i survived. it freaks me out to think that i now have a 'generation gap' which separates me from them when only a mere 5 or 6 years ago i tot i was an angry teenager. mayb now i finally understand what my old lady used to tell me when i'm driving her crazy: one day, when u have kids of your own, you'll know!
oh trust me, mum, i sure dun need to wait till the future to see for myself.
just only the other day i was on the mrt and these bunch of young kids (correction, i think they're monsters) were sitting all over the floor, oblivious to the inconvenience they're causing to passengers, playing games and chatting like monkeys. before long they have discovered the joys of hanging on the hand rails and climbing up the poles, setting off an even greater racket. clearly, i have extremely low tolerance for all these bs and was really choked up about that. but come to think of it, i think the parents should be blamed instead for allowing their children to behaving unruly in public. there was only this auntie sitting calming near them, occasionally directing an obligated 'stop that, ah kow', 'be quiet now, ah meow', and 'you'll be in for a surprise when i start smacking your bum bum in front of all these good pple, ah di'.
for christ sake, do something about it already instead of paying these lip services! can tell them quite a few annoyed faces around me but we always choose to shut up and put up with these nonsenses. sigh. i guess i can't complain since i didn't boldly speak up either. this results in bottling up all my frustrations and spending a great deal of time being grumpy in the safety of my blog. man. maybe deep in my heart i no longer trust that the society is a safe place no more and if i did pipe up on the mrt that day, inevitably yelling them to shut their pieholes, 1 of them might proceed to draw a gun outta his spiderman backpack, cursed,'die, bitch!', pulled the fatal trigger and blast my brain all over the mrt window. that'll be really tragical i guess. i never really tot of ending my life in su
ch an unhonourable death, let alone an involuntary one. it could be better off that i smoke to death or something. at least i'll taken my own life that way. hmmm.anyway, enough of bitching endlessly. oh well.. sure am grumpy when i have all the time in the world huh. how can i ever convince even myself that i am a cheery, joyous come-what-may, peace-loving, embracing children of all races in a mother theresa manner character which i wish to believe in huh. my inner angry child sure is vocal despite my angelic appearance *gentle sigh* (harp playing in background and doves fluttering above my halo)
my fave advertisement at the moment: i..... can give u gatsby... gatsby... gatsby.....
wish i was one of the girls to be fondling his face in the ad. hee hee hee.
wish i was one of the girls to be fondling his face in the ad. hee hee hee.
on a serious note. been reading this book recently. i think it's gonna be 1 of the few that might change my life in a rather drastic manner. i prolly won't talk about it openly now to avoid disappointment (mine) but if i succeed, i'm gonna be freaking thrill.
Monday, June 04, 2007
coming out of seclusion
Actually, I was really in a coma since my last entry and has miraculous woken up, despite the doctor's pessimistic solemn words that i would remain a vegetable for the rest of my life.
Joke. Simply didn't blog for months as the initial blogging fever is gone and experience no peer pressure either as only 2 blogger frens I've got aint blogging much (or none at all i.e. yishan) themselves. So dawn, sweetie, pls do not write me off as a vanished blogger as from my observation, u r not doing very well yourself, blog-wise. Ha. Btw, have u change your blog address again or simply not blogging huh. is it still the wretch thingy? Pls do update me. P.s: miss ya~
Back to me.
omg. it's june already. Can't believe how time flies. sometimes i feel that it's so fast, i can hear the 'whoosh' as time passes me by. none of my resolutions made this year happen either. life is so bleak and dreary for me. *proceed to flung myself v dramatically to the ground, sobbing hysterically in total darkness except for a lone spotlight shining on my god-saken forlorn form of a melancholy being.*
good to know that i am still as drama as ever.
i have decided to blog about trivial stuffs of my life from now on, even if nobody bothers to read it. i get my kick from indulging in egoistic self-loving blogging.
had this mock exam today. v depressing. this horrifying relevation that i'm prolly not gonna pass my jlpt 1 this year. though i am much encouraged that i passed my 3 and 2 in one sitting each, it's gonna be different this time. after all, this is like the ultimate of all jlpt exams. i cant read enough kanji, get my listening and understand the comprehensions to get that pass for sure. *deep sigh* suppose to have an hour and half for the last paper but i couldn't really bother trying as i dun understand anyway so ended up randomly filling in the answers and left almost an hour before time's up. unfortunately i was the 1st to do so and this caused much curious glances in my direction as i made my way to the door. oh! trust me. it wasn't bcoz i was too brainy.
managed to catch 3/4 of desperate housewives 3 when i got home. happily missed last week's episode as i have conveniently forgotten to tune in. and it's not the 1st time. now i can't bloody make sense of the plot no more. there are so many new characters now that i dun know wth they are and all. i can't find any back episodes on youtube either (though i am eternally grateful for the supply of jap dramas).
man, life sucks. i used to catch almost every single episode for DH season 1 and 2. 1 of the few things i really enjoy (read: sad sad life). now that i can't follow the plot, i feel like there's no point in watching it anymore. felt deprived. like a little girl whose favourite doll has been taken away and told that i will never have it back again. after some time when i'm done with mourning my loss and got on with my life, the doll was given back but i no longer want it anymore. how weird.
i must say the things in life r really hard to predict huh. i guess there is a best moment, like a climate, to everything. once u have experienced that moment, even if more is given, u still think what u used to have was better. DH was fab when i used to watch it but now that i'm watching 3, i no longer enjoy it as much no more. caught shrek 3 last week and it was a disappointment. yeah it has its funnies but 1 and 2 were the classics. strange how sequels of many movies cannot match up to their prequels.
i still recall my sec sch days in fondness. the carefree life a student led, albeit all that exams and stuff but at least all i had to do was studied and my obligation is met. ironically, i wouldn't choose to turn back time even if i could. the future is far more exciting. leave the past alone solely for memorial sake. that way, at least the memories remain the way i love to remember them by.
dun be mistaken i'm certainly not moaning about life. things can't be better than being alive! (unless i have my limbs missing or other body parts gone)
i live a bummer's life now with watching hk and jap dramas endlessly and i'm loving it more than macdonalds (although i admit i love its mcwings).
love watching how other pple's lives turn out, never mind they are fictional characters. it's the way i choose to learn about life and aint ashame to say this at all ^_^
i like reading a good book too but i dun do that often nowadays anymore. the exhilaration of a good plot which touches your heart deeply. my solace when life hits the mono lull.
when is the last time a great show or book reaches deep in your heart and made you feel that:
Ahhh.. Everything in the world, is ok.