I DiD It My Way~
Sunday, October 22, 2006
love is in the air~~~
i think i have too much time on hand. i kinda think about life in general a lot these days.. besides working a few hours a week, basically i'm almost permanently at my aunt's place, helping out sometime and trying to study for my jlpt 2 this coming dec. just bought a kanji (chinese character) dictionary + a 5-yrs-series (practice makes perfect. this was what i had learnt in my sec sch days) + a jap fashion mag (to be honest, cannot really pronounce many kanjis in the mag. u can hardly blame me. the pronounciations are almost entirely diff from chinese, and i, a chinese, keeps relating them to chinese pronounciations... + ok ok... i haven't really been studying hard enuff.. *shame-faced*). nevertheless, i could still ogle at the jap ladies in the mag. see, i believe jealousy among the same sex is silly. one must learn to appreciate the good qualities in others. they damn slim and chio ok... however, i must say they all rather look similar.. with their curly locks and all..
anyway! the bloody dictionary alone cost me about 80bucks k.. heartpain... i'm a pauper u know.. 5-yrs-series is 30bucks and mag is 15bucks.. bloody hell... the only time that i wish i had a kino discount card... *grumble grumble*. but at least the consolation is the total cost is still cheaper than one term's school fee at my jap sch. omg.. only about 1mth+ to go b4 my jlpt 2.. i must study hard.. learnt my lesson from last yr when i took my jlpt 3.. i only studied hard the night b4! typical lazy bum me. but jlpt 2 is gonna be much much more difficult so i must gen batte! if i pass, next yr can happily go find jap company employment liao.. heeheehee.. this is enuff reason for me to relac for the rest of 2006! *grin*
my new best friend now is mobtv which i paid for $10.90/mth. initially i subscribe only to watch 'the enchanted life' on channel 8 which i sometimes missed so bobian go subscribe but being singaporean, i will make my $10.90 worth by downloading AS MANY SHOWS AS I CAN! *wild laughter* plus i so free.. dun say the 9pm show la.. i also watching the 7pm 'Chalice Fairy' la, HDB tai tai la.. erm... oh liao zhai also! aiya anyway is download as many as i can la. heehee.. cheapo cheapo..
but.. it kinda made me scare actually.. sigh.. why am i so slack when my peers are hard at work from mon to fri, 9 to 5 or even beyond? hmmm.. refer to my last entry about my solemn what-is-life piece. anyway i think i am too old to suffer from peer pressure. i feel happy now. so that's all is gonna matters.
oh... are u watching the enchanted life too? yvonne lim is looking good! slim, fair, great hair, i totally love her to bits in this current drama. now then i realise how sorta charming pierre png is. basically the plot is quite cliche and unoriginal but still, i find myself glued to this serie. i guess that's the appeal of shows ba.. in real life, there will never be that many coincidences and that prince charming, despite being a CEO of a MNC company, will always have ample time for the female lead. they always look good all the time, even at home, and the romance is so intense, the only time men are portrayed as sensitive and romeo-types (hmmm.. izzit a coincidence or loverboys are but fictional? my advice to is go read 'men are from mars, women are from venus' by john grey. very enlightening). heehee. but i thoroughly enjoy watching a good show la.. they fulfill some fantasy in one which we might never encounter in real life... the pisces girl needs to satisfy her daydreams which the real world cannot offer.
i suddenly think about marriage. what is it like? what made 2 persons commit to it? i used to think marriage is a far away thing for me, even up till now. have i had enuff fun? do i wanna settle down, have a family of my own? honestly i still feel very kiddish most of the time. i almost always just wanna enjoy myself. marriage to me seems to be for the mature, solemn grown-ups only. then it hits me then i'm actually a grown up too isn't it.. looking around, most of my frens are either still in uni or recently freshly graduated and are part of the workforce. hence virtually zero pressure to settle down at the moment.
in 1 of my previous entry, there is a most adorable baby whose mummy is my aunt's customer. the mummy is only 20 but baby is almost going to be 1-yr-old. surely the mummy is too young in my opinion. i kinda feel sad for her.. like she had not even have enuff fun, enjoy enuff of her youth but yet baby came along.. she told me she feels bored most of the time bcoz she's a stay-home mum now. she smokes a lot a drink at home when she's bored. i feel like sighing. isn't motherhood a joyous thing? but of coz.. i can hardly blame her.. and i am not her, so i will not understand. but being almost the same age, i sorta know how she feels.
i was looking thru my friendster, this pri sch fren of mine, who added me some time back, now posts pix of her newborn son. i was actually very surprised. i did saw her posted wedding photos when i 1st added her but i didn't expect.... (sometimes i can be very blur and ignorant).. she's my age. i rem we used to play all those childish games like zero point and hopscotch during recess during pri sch, went to her house after sch and all. she was quite a chubby girl back then but now she's slim and all! basically she's just on my friendster and i didn't really msg her either but i'm really surprised.. married and just given birth.. how does all these feel??!!! i'm pretty bewildered but at the same time, mystified but all these. me and my best fren shany, once agreed that marriage will be the next milestone of our frenship, follow by motherhood. i think any normal girl will be looking forward to these life-changing experiences.
i will strive to enjoy my single life to the fullest as i can b4 i tie the knot and junior me comes along. after all, i believe having children is a longlife responsibility. frankly.. i am really looking forward to having kids! (maternal instinct, i blame my hormones). i have even tot of what to name my daughter! (also sorta know what to name my son but is hesitant and is not as certain as my daughter-to-be). heehee.. happy to know that the bf is not a committment-phobia freak. shall let nature takes its course...
so last week, i followed the bf to his fren's wedding dinner. ok.. i admit i went along for the food and alcohol... teehee.. ang pow not from me anyway... hahaha.. the bridegroom bearhugged the bf at the entrance (i believe he is already pretty high by the time we arrived) and then gave me a firm handshake when i said my congrats, followed by a low whisper telling me that the bf is a great catch. gesture appreciated. the bride, whom i stole a few glances at, was shockingly petite. i must explain that the bridegroom was towering, even taller than the bf who is 1.8. the bride seems my height of 1.5ish. wow. anyway..
i made sure my red wine glass is constantly filled at all time! heeheehee.. wat.. i already admitted i was there for the booze, didn't i? kept a glass of water nearby too, u know, wine makes u thirsty.. oohhhhhhh... the food is not bad too! very standard affair, 1st being 'the cold plate' followed by shark fin then steam fish la, suckling pig (super delicious!!!), sliced abalone etc...yayaya.. i know i suaku ok.. the last wedding dinner i attend is like dunno, 10yrs ago or something k... relatives very little can or not... but i think i enjoyed almost every dish. happy!
the suckling pig is so nice!!! the skin is crispy, and the meat is so tender and delicious!!!!! and the best thing is i didn't even have to 'kiup' the food myself. the bf was so kindly putting the goodies onto my plate so all i have to do is to enjoy! i swear i floated in the air for like 30secs when i bit into the meaty pork. it's. bloody. nice! no words can describe.. become fat al
so worth it!Heehee.. *sheepish*... know my plate is very full la.. got sliced abalone la.. scallop, my lovely suckling pig, mushroom, sea cucumber and my fave veg, brocolli. and of coz, my lovely red wine. i was a very happy girl that night.
i enjoyed myself although it was not at a fancy, town-located hotel, wedding banquet. maybe the bf is right.. the location is not all it matters.. deep in my heart i might still wish to hold my future wedding at a certain hotel starting with the letter 'M' (not M hotel, fyi) but i suddenly realise, i think i will rather all my close frens and loved ones, albeit very few (due to anti-social nature), are able to share my special day when the time comes.
i wish all lovers eternal romantic happiness. especially to one fren of mine who told me that he's gonna get married soon.. ^_^
